Well, hubs is on travel again, this time its just for a week. So,
birdie and I slept in. I know we should have gone to church, but...I had a lovely "quiet time" while she was still sleeping. My favorite thing is to have the house all to myself. Absolutely quiet, no phone, no TV, no music, it is just...Aaahhh! It is not that often that I get it either. We are not a noisey family, but I love the quiet and solitude. In our world today, there is so much noise. Does anybody else feel that way? So I treasure that quiet time all to myself, armed with my Bible, devotional (Journey by Lifeway...love it!), and my prayer journal. I write my personal prayers in it, along with the praises and requests of my fellow bible study gals. We meet every Tuesday evening and share requests that are on our hearts and minds, after we have discussed the chapter(s) in the current book or study we are doing. This is a special time we share with LOTS of laughter, tears, and stories. 'Cause we all have to tell the story before we actually share the request, know what I'm sayin'?
So, I had a nice quiet time to myself, then I hear, "mom". Guess who's awake? That is when the noise begins. How does that always happen, they are sound asleep, then wake up and start the day with a million questions or chatter about any and everything! At least that is what
birdie does... I used to adore her little voice, her soft little chirping sound. Now it is TV or her CD player, (sometimes both) and her fun chatter. I am NOT complaining, just stating that I
enjoy cherish the quiet. I have to remind myself that she is
able to talk, dance, sing and jump around like a monkey. When she was about 3 months old, doctors said she may never do this and may never do that. The worst thing new parents can hear! What if we had held tightly to their words? Boy, that would have been a tragic life for all 3 of us. Instead, we chose to trust in the Lord and seek His plan for us. Trust me, it was (and still is) hard, but I am so glad we went down that path versus listening to the negative, and gloom and doom that can come with having a child with special needs. Remember, we did not realize the "special needs" that we faced. It was new to us and it was something we had to learn each day and pray the Lord would guide us. We had family to help us through, plus, our wonderful pediatrician and the service that the doctors told us about. It is a program through the state which provided Occupational therapy, Physical therapy, and later Speech therapy. She still recieves those services, but they are provided through the public school system, (still provided by the state). Those people were a huge part of our life. These therapist's would come into our home on a weekly basis. So, needless to say, we had a good relationship. I never would have been able to grasp all of this, had I been told, say in a birthing class, you
may have a child with health issues or physical issues. A pregnant woman is overwhelmed at all the new information anyway, along with all the changes happening to our body. Could you imagine being told these possibilities too? I for one could NOT have handled any of what I was "in" for. Hubs either. So, God is in control and gives us what we can handle only when we are ready for it...when He thinks we are ready for it, not when we decide we "might" be ready or not.
I am so thankful for the services provided by the state to help us, as well as our many doctor and nurse friends we have encountered along this journey. Otherwise, we would be huddled in a corner sucking our thumb and rocking back and forth. Thank you Dear Lord for carrying us down this unknown and scary path. We can face tomorrow because we know without a doubt that You are there for us, even when we are fearful, scared, worried, anxious, and skeptical. Thank you does not seem to be powerful enough to express our gratitude. We are truly
blessed beyond words.
So, I leave you tonight with a verse to think about, meditate on.
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"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7
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Until next time...
Serving Him,
Christina
